Chapter 1

In the beginning, everything was great. It was perfect actually. The society was peaceful, we had the lowest crime rate in the whole world and, our community always worked together as one. Everyone knew everyone and it was one happy and peaceful place. During the winter, everyone would contribute to make some plastic (waterproof and snow proof )flowers so we could put them on trees - just to make things a little less depressing. I remember there was this street where each family would make enough flowers to make 2 whole trees, one opposite the other. As you drive or walk down this street, different flowers would be found on the trees, each special in their own way because everyone had their own unique ways of crafting the flowers. In fact, we used to call it the rainbow street. 

The rainbow street was where all the parades were held. Like Regent street in London, if you like. All the festivals, new year celebrations and all of the joyful events will be held there. Everyone in our community would come together to celebrate these joyous occasions. The government would supply the food and drinks. As a community, I can say that we all cleared up after each other so that rainbow street would always be clean. It's our pride, it's what we were noticed around the world for - other than the fact that we had the lowest crime rate. It's where all families went to during the winter just to get that joyful feeling of the coming of spring.

Our community was so safe that we didn't need any policemen. there was mutual trust and we always welcomed strangers. Most of the people who came over usually didn't look forward to leave. We did have one rule though- outsiders, people who were not born in this community, did not have the right to stay for more than a month. Everyone gladly agreed with this rule because it gave us the security, knowing that nobody could sabotage us. 

I remember it like it was yesterday, to be honest. It was a happy and glorious day, as always. Until we heard the news. The horrible news that changed everything, forever... 

Emerald Tan 

Oxymoron

Cold, wet and windy, warm, dry and sunny. Over the border, two different worlds. One, struggling to bring dinner home, the other not struggling at all. All you have to do is peep over the border and *bam*. A whole new environment. If you're from "the dark side", you won't be able to cross the border. Even if you could, you wouldn't. Only because you know you would be treated differently, worse. Like a slave, if you like.

When I say sunny, what would you think of? Summer! Flowers everywhere, girls dressing sexier, convertible cars with their roofs down, etc. But, what comes with summer? Summer holidays! The beach gets warmer, the days get longer and of course, your skin colour gets darker. Cold, on the other hand makes you think of winter. Those cold days when you slip on the snow on your way to work, having cold and wet feet because of it. Looking at naked trees? It is not a nice sight at all.

Just imagine yourself, dressed up like it's summer but instead, it's winter. You would eventually put more layers on and light the fireplace up to keep yourself warm. That is how it feels like going to "the dark side". No one wants that because it's clearly horrible. Why would you want to go down to that level, like "them" unworthy people. They should not exist. They don't even do any good in society. We don't need these type of people. 

That's why we built the border. We don't want our children to… ... Wait...  

I'm probably not making sense. Let me start from the beginning. How all of it started in the first place …

Emerald Tan 

Jane

She stumbled towards the dim light, certain that it was her last chance at freedom. The light was beckoning, and though it appeared tainted, she knew it would bear the breath of fresh air she yearned for. Summoning her last ounce of strength,  she pulled herself towards the dusty door, dragging her limp body along.

I stood in a corner, amused by her pathetic efforts to escape. The fact that she believed she could be free never failed to bring a smirk to my face. She didn't notice me, absorbed by the sliver of sunlight that she so desperately clung on to. I knew the longer I left her, the more she thought she would be able to escape. I wanted her hopes to soar so high, only for it to come crashing down as she realised what I have done. Am I a sick person? Easily entertained by the suffering of others? Maybe I am, but the control I had over her was so overpowering, consistently urging me to play with her, push her to the limits. To break her.

It seemed like it was only yesterday when I noticed her. There wasn't anything unique about her features that caught my attention. Instead, it was how generally simple she seemed. She looked boring, caught in a life she no longer reigned over. She looked plain. Plain Jane. Since then, I constantly searched for her, considering it a challenge to identify her from the hoards of people swarming around. I always enjoyed a challenge. Soon, it became habit to look for that simple brown bob amidst the swirling crowd. 

I wanted more. I wanted her to know me, to understand the lengths I went through just to discover her. 

I decided to visit her at her favourite pub, 'The Sawmill', the one she goes to once a fortnight every Thursday. I sat on a table for two, situated south-east of where she was. I waited until she was mostly drunk, then walked up towards the bar to introduce myself. 

I knew that all she wanted was a one night stand, something to add interest to her dull, monotonous life. Certain that I wasn't a threat, she kissed me and we made our way back to my house, where I assisted her drunk self into my room.

That was when I told her that I've seen her before. Initially, she thought I was being romantic. I continued to explain to her how I observed her actions, for example how she always licks her lips when she gets nervous.

Just as I said that, she licked her lips and backed away. As confusion, tinged with fear, flooded into her eyes, she whispered,"I don't understand." Even after a few years, those three words ran a shiver down my spine...

I strided towards the door and stood myself in front of her. Memories never failed to make me feel sentimental, but I had to first crush the hopes of my flightless little bird. I leaned down and held her face in my hands.

"You're stuck with me, dear." I said lovingly, wiping away the tear that rolled down her cheek as she came to a realisation that she was nowhere near escape. The burden of that understanding, mixed with that of hunger and fear, proved too much for her. She fell limp in my arms and I brought her back into the room, placing her gently onto her bed.

Her foot caught onto the bottle of acid that I use every so often and it spilt, hissing as it kissed her broken skin. I retrieved the bottle and put it in my pocket, certain that I would make use of it again. I reached for the key that hung around my neck and locked her room. The action always gave me a sense of power. I relished every moment of it.

I walked down the stairs and made myself a cup of coffee, then sat on the dining table to read the daily newspaper. As I flipped through the papers, a particular article caught my eye. A black and white picture of her was featured in a page-long article. Her hair was shorter and she seemed younger, but I could recognise her nonetheless.

'THE NATION MOURNS FOR EMMA CHRISTINA ALEXANDER'S THIRD YEAR OF DISAPPEARANCE'

I shook my head in disgust while I read the article. Emma Christina Alexander? The name didn't suit her at all. She was more of a... Jane.

A plain Jane.

Written by Sabrina Tan Sue Yi

May~

Some of you may know, most of you don't know that on may 3rd (Friday) it was my birthday!! My godfather from Singapore came and visit me and my family. Again, some of you may know, most of you don't know that he was supposed to bring my phone with him <3 but the thing was, his luggage got stuck in Amsterdam. And, my PHONE was in there! 

A couple of days before he came, I told my mom 'I hope he doesn't make me wait' but I guess I didn't exactly have a choice. So we waited for a couple of days and in those two days, he (or we) went shopping because it was all under insurance (: 

When his luggage came, I obviously got my phone. So feeling happy and excited, etc. I found out that it needed a mini sim. My heart broke </3 then my sister got a phone call from my mom which was still in town with my dad. I decided to try my luck and ask if we could meet them in town and I could possibly go and change my SIM card. To my utmost surprise, she said yes and we instantly left the house. 

Went to the shop, got my SIM card and the worst thing was coming up next -> waiting for it to activate! That night, it finally did and my first text was from Sam asking what colour hair I had. Haha :') 

So all in all, it was a superb birthday and the best that I had since I can remember. Thank you so much godpa <3 I love you. 

Xoxo emerald 

Oh dear

I just realised that I didn't post anything at all during may.. I'm terribly sorry for that <3 I will be more committed to this. 

Xoxo Emerald 

Hey guys

Heyyy!! Really sorry for not being able to upload new stuff.. My sister has decided to take her iPad back which means it will be harder for me to upload posts. But I was busy with mock week and exams and then I went to Scotland with my Malaysian friends. And lately, I've been busy getting back to school. You obviously know the feeling of going back to school -not very nice.. 

I'm also planning to start a YouTube channel with my friend Sam and its gonna be called SAMERALD. Once the first post it up, I will defiantly post it on here with the link and more information. It would be good if I have support from you guys <3 will try and find more time to upload and think of other stories to tell you guys. 

Stay tuned xoxo Emerald.

Cool?!

Just got off the phone with a doctor. Is that cool or what??! S he suspects the I might have sprained my muscle. He suggests that I should not stay in bed because that might make it worst. So I shall go and buy some drugs at the drug store.
What's for dinner tonight? - 'yap mei fan' this is gonna be yummmmmmy ♥

BYEEEE!!

Hair style suggestions anybody?

I was just thinking since I'm on the roll on posting stuff on my blog today, I wanted to ask you guys what hairstyle I should get. I already have a dip-dyed hair, on the right (first picture) click to view full sized pic.
And I was thinking of maybe shaving some of my hair off (second picture, might consider dying my hair red as well. Not sure yet!) And when it grows out, I'll just change my parting (for the shaving part) What do you guys think? Comment below if you would. Or ask me something Ask.fm/Emmm98 you could search me on twitter as well @emmmmmy98 :)

OMG, guess what?

So I have this godfather from Singapore and in exactly 2 weeks time, it'll be my birthday and HE'LL BE ARRIVING HERE!
I called my mom about 2 days ago and he was with her so I wanted to talk to him (cause I miss him) and turns out, they were just talking bout me. He asked my mom what would I like for my birthday and he offered an iPhone5 or a Samsung SIII. My mom, knowing me so well told him that I'd prefer an SIII so he picked up the phone and asked me the same question. I was shocked! But I still told him I wanted the Samsung so he said okay. I'll get you that.

I HONESTLY THOUGHT THERE WAS A CATCH TO IT OR SOMETHING!! But there wasn't! Aww, my God is so awesome!! If you read my first post, some of you might know that I lost my phone in the snow. It was the 3rd generation or the iPhone. So I've been using a phone borrowed from my dad's company and I was actually supposed to return it on march. But nobody asked for it so I didn't :p

Anyways, I have this prayer book thing and even though I didn't write it in that book, God read my heart and He is gonna bless me with a new phone!! THANK YOU!! He also taught me to be patient because He has his own timing. I don't know why but my wish list this year isn't a long one. I only want 3 things. And one of them, I'm already getting!

The remaining 2, I've just have to pray hard and believe that I'm gonna get it!!
Click on the picture to view full size. COME TO ME BABY!!

Feeling stressed?

If you are, read the pictures below. Hopefully you would laugh and it'll ell enlighten your mood :)

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So, what actually happened?

What actually happened was that I was first being surrounded by a group of tall boys trying to make me feel short (mission accomplished guys) seriously, they were like walls and they were closing in and and I almost got squashed to death <- over exaggeration (Just so you know) XD

Anyways, I managed to get out :DD (don't ask me how) but yeah, I did and then when I went back, THEY DIDN'T LET ME JOIN THE CIRCLE. Or more like Sam didn't let me in!' So I popped my head under Sam's arm and then just stayed there for about 5 seconds (more or less) and the pain came.
At first, it was all really shocking but then it got worst. Laughing made the pain last for a really long time and I just knew something wasn't right. So I didn't move at all. All those happened during break. It was double period of drama after break. Molly is in my drama class and being a clown that she is, she kept making me laugh and the pain was just so horrible I was sort of crying and laughing at the same time? If that even makes sense.
I didn't actually wanna skip drama because they were studying/doing/investigation on an interesting subject (Jim Jones - peoples temple) but the pain was really bad so I got a note from Ms.Carr and she sent Molly and I to the medical room (because she had to support me :)) We went to the medical room and then Molly went back to drama. The medical room teacher asked me to describe the pain that I felt. So I said
'It feels like something big and sharp is consistently stabbing me and its just getting deeper and deeper each time'
So she said that I could've pulled something she also added
'Even if you went to the doctors, they would probably just ask you to keep moving it'

And my reaction was 'YOU MAD BRO?!' So she explained that I've got to keep moving it or it'll tighten up or some such. I was no way gonna do that, I'd probably be crying cause it just hurts that much. She gave me a hot water bottle and let me stay at the medical room. (I did manage to get a shut eye ;)) so after 45 minutes in there, I started t think what we're drama people doing. I then suggested to the medical room person saying that I want to go back to drama but I just won't participate much in what they do. She was really nice and asked me if I wanted to bring the hot water bottle with me but I said no.

So there I was with the pain still there (but slightly less) walking back to my drama lesson, alone, with the wind blowing in my face and leafs flying into my eyes -.- I honestly felt really proud because the old me would've just stayed there until I fall into a deep sleep and before I know it, it's the end of school. So yeah #proud :)

The picture below is just a very nice picture of a wall. Since it has something to do with this I decided to post it. Just imagine this wall suddenly appear around you and it starts to come closer and closer till the point where all you can do is stand and not move, yup. That's how I felt XD

Back to school + mock week + second science gcse exams - holiday + revision = stress

Okay, so first of all, I'm sorry I haven't had the time to update my blog. As you can tell by the title, I went back to school on the 15th of April, Monday. You know that feeling after a couple of weeks off from school and when you go back you feel so tired and lazy and you would do anything to sleep in? Yeah, that pretty much summed up my Monday - Thursday.
Obviously, you guys know that today is a Friday and that mean its the LAST DAY of the school week!! YAY!! 'Its Friday, Friday. Gotta get down on Friday. Everybody's looking forward to the weeeeeeeekend' :D
Some of you might be wondering why I'm not in school and I have a very legit reason for that. I have a back ache (and yes, I do feel very old whenever I say that) I was actually looking forward for Friday because if I went to school, I'd be doing athletics for pe and I really miss running so yeah. Sadly, because of my back pain (yes, still feeling old saying that) sitting down, standing up, tilting my body sideways, leaning against the wall, laughing, sneezing and even WALKING hurts.. So what are the chances of me running again? Yeah....

I can sleep in, but I chose not to because I'm taking this opportunity to update my blog. I did mention mock week in my title. Some of you might not know what that means but most of you may. But for the sake of some of you, mock week is a week where you are being mocked. <- didn't make much sense, did it? XD oh well, let me try again. Mock week is a week where you take all the trail papers and try your best to do well. Apparently, our results will be sent back to our parents or something :s
I did also mention second science gcse exams. The marks that I get will be contributing to the actual exam and that's why I'm so stressed out!! I did already take my first one and I did pretty well in my class but not so well in my form. I actually though I got a 'U' but when I looked nicely it was type 'U' as in 'U'nit. So I got a B but all the other girls at the end of the table (that were in my form) soured 'OMG! I GOT AN A*' and I'm just like .. Okay. XD
Anyways, I can't change anything bout that so I have to concentrate on my second one and hopefully do better so when the average marks come, I'll be able to get an A instead of a B!!

Here's a picture for you to calm you down if you're facing what I'm facing. Because, well idk. It's picture makes me really calm. The flowers are like never ending and, it's just beautiful. Click on it to view the full picture. Thanks for reading my blog.

Stay tuned to know what actually happened to my back xxx

Busy, busy day

Jane picked me and my sister up at about 11 today. She drove us to tesco and we started shopping! Wasn't as expensive as I thought it would've been but it was more than £20. So we headed to Janes house and started preparing. (The reason why we did it at Janes house was because she had all the appropriate apparatus while I didn't :p )
We started with the base of the white chocolate cheese cakes s we let it chill for about 30minutes. While the base was setting, I made the pastry for the lemon meringue pie. Then I did the lemon curd for the lemon meringue pie and lastly, I whisked the egg whites and the caster sugar together to form the meringue. I took the pastry out and rolled it out to a china. Because Jane and I didn't have any baking beans, I used the rocks from her garden and wrapped it with tinfoil before putting them onto the blind pastry. I cooked it in the oven for about 20minutes and for the last 5 minutes took the rocks out so that the bottom part would cook :) I then put the lemon curd and the meringue on then left it to bake till the top is brown and beautiful.
First picture finished product :) sorry for the cracks :p (click pic to view full size image)
We then took the white chocolate cheese cake base out and mixed the white chocolate and cheese together and left it to set for 30minutes.
Second picture finished product :) there's a little raspberry on there ;) (click pic to view full size image)
We had a half an hour break for lunch and then I started doing the cheese soufflé. First I had to do the mix and then grate all the different type of cheese (it was so tiring and took me the longest time) then I misted in 6 egg yolks and the mixture and whisked it together. Then I had to butter the ramekins and put them in. We had a lot of extras (hahah) so we put it in a ovenproof dish and cooked the rest. While it was cooking in the oven, I opened the door and got a smack at the butt because I wasn't supposed to do it. (Taught by Jane, if you do, the hot air will go out and be replaced by the cool air and the soufflé will sink in :( ) so yeah, NOTE THAT.
Third and forth picture. Sorry for the shrink :p didn't take it fast enough. The third picture is the one in the ramekin and the forth one is the one in the ovenproof dish. (Click pic to view full size image)
Finally, the macaroni and cheese. I had to boil the macaroni for about 1/2 and hour. And while doing that, I stirred the butter and flour to form a roux. Not long after that, I had to whisk in the milk until the sauce was thickened. Then I added the cheese mixture into it. Macaroni was added into the sauce and then put into another ovenproof dish. The remaining cheese was put for the topping and then tadaaaa.
Fifth picture. Can't actually apologise for anything this time cause this picture looks really nice :p (click pic to view full size)
Andrew came back and the first dish we had was the soufflé. Then we had the macaroni and cheese and for dessert, we had the lemon meringue pie. You're probably wondering why wasn't it the white chocolate cheese cake. And that is because that is meant to be a surprise for my father hen he comes back tomorrow.

Credits to my sister (Sabrina) for doing all the washing up :))
Credits to Jane for allowing me to do this here and helping me when I was stuck and also encouraging me when I was really tired.
And
Credits to Andrew for eating the food :p and washing up after that :)

Sixth picture > summary of today (click pic to view full size)
Lots of love Emerald. I hope you enjoyed reading this :) xx

Esther, Rebekah and Susanna

Adorable little people ♥ I love them so much. Their parents, Mary and Tim are also very lovely people. We (my sister and I) are over at their's at the moment. They have been such lovely hosts. They have a garden that is 2 acres and half of it is the woods. Had a lovely time climbing trees and running around, shooting hoops and not forgetting the cartwheels we did.
They are now having a nap time before the night service for church. I had such a great day today thanks to these girls and their parents.
If you are reading this, thank you so much for having us over and I hope that we weren't a burden. God bless xx

First pic : the garden
Second pic : Rebekah and me
Third pic : me, my sis and Esther
Forth pic : Susanna and me
Fifth pic : Susanna, my sister and Rebekah.

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Hope you enjoyed reading this x

Cowgirls

So today, we had a surprise belated birthday party for Louise today (a friend of mine from church.) I went to church at 3.45 p.m and started preparing the food with my sister and Jane. We prepared a lot :p like I said, it was surprise so Louise didn't know anything about it. After preparing the food, me and my sister went out to the foyer and played some table tennis :) I was so good at it. Just saying.
So when it was close to 7ish, more and more people started arriving. We now had to prepare the drinks. It was really fun although we made a mess. In my church, there's this sports centre thing and we used that place as the venue of where the party was held. There was like a photo booth and a stage and like everything!!
The theme for this party is cowboy/cowgirl. And I only found out that we had to dress up a day before. Because I slept late last night, I woke up at about 10ish (kinda early. Was planning to wake up at about 12ish.. Anyways,) I searched my mom's wardrobe for some cowgirl clothes. But before that, I googled it and some really disturbing pictures appeared.
So I decided to wear a white top, black jeans, a belt (first picture) and knee high boots (unlucky you weren't there :p)
There was also a live band!! So at about half8, Louise finally arrived. She initially thought that it was a family thing but then when she entered the sports hall thing, she was so surprised. Everyone just clapped and I think she almost cried :') she then went and change to her cowgirls outfit. (She's wasn't expecting that.)
We started dancing and dancing and ate and listened to the music. Then desert came and wow it was some sinful stuff. Then we danced again and people started leaving. We had our final dance and then we packed up because we have church the next morning. I had a great time at the party. I was so glad I was invited and I wished that my mom and dad was there.
Jane and Andrew took me and my sister home and here I am. At the present time, typing out how awesome my day was today :) good night everyone.

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QUESTIONS?

If you have any questions, ask me at
Ask.fm/Emmm98
I will try my best to answer all the questions honestly and yeah. Oh and, NO HATE PLEASE! Thanks C:

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THURSday (4/4/13) & FRIday (5/4/13)

Thursday- today, me and my sister went for an afternoon jog because we woke up too late for a morning jog xp after that jog, we head to town for lunch. Had Chinese again. Then OBVIOUSLY, we went shopping :D we reached home at about 3. Practiced some songs and got picked up by Andrew. Had tea with him and Jane then headed to church for life group. Not many people turned up but the show must go on ;) so we did praise and worship and then handed it over to Andrew :) we headed home at about 10ish. But I slept somewhere close to 3

Friday - I met up with tommy today :) we ate lunch together at AskItalian. The food there was great. I really wanted to watch 'The Odd Life of Timothy Green' so we did. It wasn't playing at the vue so we watched it at river side. The movie time was at 2.15 but we got there at about half 3 but the advertisements were still playing. On the way to river side, we stopped at a couple of places to buy popcorn and drinks :) I won't tell you how the story went but tbh, I found it very disappointing. They have a good story line and people who acted in it but.. I didn't feel it man. Sozz. My mom told me to prepare myself because I was bound to cry but I didn't. The atmosphere was there and all but they didn't hold it long enough so they failed on that. So yeah
I got picked up by Sam J (from church) at 6.40 for youth. I had a great time playing ping pong and stuff :) and then danced and etc.

So yeah my Thursday and Friday was a blast but.. Did it sound interesting? XD
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WEDNESday - Sand-Ring-Ham (3/4/13)

'I've been to London to visit the queen!'
This time, it was Sandringham. I went to the queens castle. It felt so homey ♥ oh yes, I am such a VIP Sam was supposed to come but he couldn't make it so my sisters friend, Nature (I know that's an awesome name) was free and tagged along :)
We took lots of pictures and stuff. But the food there was kinda expensive. But oh wells.. It was a very cold day but yet sunny.
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First picture below - Rebecca sitting on my shoulders :)
Second picture below - Nature, Sabrina (my sister), Emerald (me) otw to the queens castle :)
Third picture below - candid shot for me but my sister is always a poser so yeah ;)
Forth picture below - Jumpshot :)
Fifth picture below - Rebecca, me and my sister on a tree :)

TUESday C: (2/4/13)

It was Molly's birthday on Sunday (yes, the day my granddad passed away) so she celebrated it on this day :)
Archie, Noah, James, Ishan, Sam, and I were invited :)
So Sam's mom was supposed to give me a lift but she decided that it would've been faster for SA to cycle. So we met at Maid Head Hotel. I waiting under the sun but in the cold for about 15minutes (felt like the longest 15minutes of my life XD) but anyways, I'm not angry or whatever, there's no point really. So we head to town cause Sam had to buy Molly's birthday present. We went to castle mall and he bought Molly a 'I'm a twat' mug and a 'crawl on leg sex' thingie. Whatever its called. But it was all a joke :) at the counter, he saw the 'beanboozel' challenge. And he bought it!! (More explanation later)
So anyways, we were on the was to quasar (laser tag place) and we found out we were 30minutes early!! So we walked out and saw Archie walking towards quasar. We then decided to go to C.E.X shop. A shop that sells second hand electronic stuff. We didn't get anything. We than headed back to quasar and not too long after that, Noah joined us. Then ishan then James and finally the birthday gurl, MOLLY!! 
So we played 2 games of laser tag (I last badly in both of em' so m not gonna talk much about it :p ) after that we went to Pizza Hut but it was FULL :( so we decided on Chinese food not too far from Pizza Hut. Sam didn't have cash and they only took cash £ so I, being such an awesome friend, paid for him first :)
We headed to Chapelfield park and played the 'beanboozel' challenge. I never heard of it before but it's a cool game. So there are a few colours and a pair of them. So lets say it white. It's either baby wipes or coconut. To be very honest, I'm glad I got baby wipes for all the times I got a white one because I hate the taste of coconut. It's rank plus, baby wipes aren't that bad :p so red is either centipede or strawberry jam. Orange is either vomit or peach. Chocolate is either dog food or chocolate fudge and etc. Well, you get the idea. So we played it and yeah it was great fun!!
Feel free to watch it on YouTube :) (or get the idea from the first picture below. Click the pic to view the full size of it)
Part 1 of the challenge : http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WbbFdx94f5E
Part 2 of the challenge : http://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=g-high-u&v=kvFfsbDgi0s
So then we went and play at the playground (oh how childish did that sound huh?) so there was this net thing that you were supposed to walk/run/slowly walk/crawl on to reach the pointless slide at the end. Smart me tried to follow the footsteps of 'cool' Sam aka running up there. So I did and I slipped through the hole and tried to sae myself but the impact hurt my wrist and that was what happened to my wrist.. YEAH... (Pic 2 below. Sorry for the bad quality of the picture. Click the pic to view the full size of it)
I honestly thought it was broken or fractured or something but nope. THANK GOODNESS NOT! But anyways, I had to head home not too long after that incident so I did and yeah. That was the end of my eventful day :) :)

MONday (1/4/13)

Today, my hair caught on fire!!! APRIL FOOOOOOOOL!! :D I know I'm like 4 days late but here's what I did on that day :)

Jane came and pick me and my sister up from my house, we went to Margaret's house and guess what we had? A TEA PARTY!! How English is that eyh? Margaret is such a good baker. She had a bird. A canary to be exact. We sang with it (thanks to me it started singing ;) ) then we all sang songs. Suddenly this dude asked me and my sister to sing a mandarin song.. So we did. I didn't make any eye contact and just concentrated on the wall in front of me. But everyone claimed it was beautiful and they said that we should go professional. That dude added 'you and your sisters voice goes well together' that made me very happy. Oh yes :p then they asked us to sing another mandarin song. Without habitation, we did and even though they didn't understand what we sang, they felt it because we sang it with lots of emotion C:
After that, WE WENT TO THE SAILING CLUB!! We managed to get there on time to see Andrew sail in. It was a cold day. But yeah, it was really cool :D we then headed to Jane's house for tea and she sent me and my sister home :)

I find the picture below really interesting and it calms me down. The amount of colour in that shot is also very impressive. Have a good night everyone xx ♥
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News, news, NEWS

First of all, let me say sorry because I haven't been updating my blog. I've been very busy and tired for the past couple of weeks. It was hectic.
Well, my grandfather passed away (Sunday 31/3/13) .. Got the news when I was on the way back from Brighton. But thanks Jak for helping me through the time of my breakdown. Teehee, you're a good friend.
It's Easter break now and I've been keeping myself bussssyyy.

(Stay tuned for le update on my week) :D xxx
R.I.P granddad. I miss you and I love you so ♥
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What is life?

According to the dictionary, life is the property or quality that distinguishes living organisms from dead organisms and inanimate matter, manifested in functions such as metabolism, growth, reproduction, and response to stimuli or adaptation to the environment originating from within the organism.
Have you ever wondered, what is life? Am I here for a purpose? Am I here just for fun? What am I here for? Am I just like ants to some other living things up there? How do we know we are significant human beings?
Well, life is what you want it to be. You are here for a purpose. You aren't here just 'for fun'. There is a reason for you on this earth. Even if you don't see it now, or tomorrow, or the day after. You will figure it out. I am no one to tell you what life should be like. Just, treasure it. You never know when the last day would be. Thank God every morning for what you've got. Thank Him for blessing you with another day.
Don't commit suicide just because someone said something really hurtful. Or just because 'you can't cope with life anymore'. Trust me, there are worse people out there. Those people who live in the streets, you don't see them committing suicide. There will always be hope but you have to let faith guide you.
In conclusion, life is what you want it to be. Live it to the fullest and treasure it because it is something very special :) <3 xx

Thank you.

I want to take this time to thank everyone who has been reading my blog. I am very touched with how many views I've got in less than a week. So thank you. This post I'd dedicated to you guys <3 below you see the first picture which was the first day I got my blog and the second picture is until this day. Thank you again.

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It's been a while C":

I'm sorry I haven't been updating my blog. I've been really busy and tired the past couple of days. But anyways, its (still) Friday so why not? As usual, I was scrolling through twitter and I saw amazing and beautiful pictures. Those 2 pictures at the bottom of this post are the 2 that I liked the most. They are so beautiful. I was just thinking how lucky those people are. How they managed to experience it and not to mention those who actually live there. But so,show, I've got this feeling that they take it for granted and that its nothing special to them.
I was also thinking about how sweet it would be to kiss under the that sunset. Or maybe to be on that boat with your loved ones admiring the it. People just don't know how lucky they are. They tempt to neglect the people around them and the things around them and before they manage to appreciate it, it'll be gone.
(Going a bit off topic here but) I love tigers. Mainly because they are really pretty and they could be often found in Malaysia not forgetting that I'm born in the year of the tiger okay, I actually want to adopt a tiger. I mean seriously, how cool would it be? (There's a picture of a white and orange tiger below) sadly, they are getting extinct. Those beautiful creatures that used to be really involved in the animal kingdom are endangered. What is happening? This makes me really sad because they hunt them down just for their fur and apparently, their claws make good medicine? Oh ffs, we have other medicines. We can't endanger a species and go overboard just because their claws are good medicine and their fur are good insulators. *sighs* yes, I am very sad about this situation. I simply love tigers, they're so cute and I really really really want my children to see them. To see them in REAL LIFE. Maybe in the night safari or the zoo but obviously not in a museum. That's just horrible.
Anyways linking that up to the sunset and waterfall picture below, they are beautiful things and you should appreciate it while its still there. Who knows what could happen? Maybe mankind finds this very valuable thing under all waterfalls and decides to dig them up, the waterfalls can't be waterfalls anymore and the next thing you know, no more waterfalls. And the sunsets, maybe because of global warming, mankind discovers a way to prevent it from happening by making man made clouds. And by making that, the UV-rays from the sun won't reach the earth but it will still be able to keep the earth warm. But maybe we won't be able to see the sun anymore. And if you can't see the sun, you won't see the sunset or the sunrise.
To sum it all up, appreciate the things that you have now. Take a day off what you do and just sit by your window or your tree outside your house (or just go to a park) and appreciate the way the earth is working right now because you will never know when it'll be the last day you are living or when it'll be the last day of that happening the way it always happens. <3 <3
Nighty night. Xxxxx

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Mother knows best C:

Everybody, this is my mummy. A motivational, loving, caring, warm, cheerful mother that is always there no matter what. I love how my relationship with my mummy is so open. Sometimes I even feel like she's my friend or sister. We can practically talk about anything. Some of it are private, some of it are funny, some of it are weird and some of it are serious shizzz.
Ever since I was young, I was brought up to tell everything to my parents. But I wasn't forced to. It was more like I wanted to tell them about everything and anything that happened.
I talked to her about relationship issues. And she would give me advise which were are still are useful. I would tell her what I'm going through (relationship problems as well) and she would remind me that I should not take things too seriously. I would tell her that I've got a pimple and she'd tell me what to do. I remember when she took me to my first ever facial ♥ fabulous. My mother would take me shopping and tell me if I look good in that dress or not. If the heals are too high or if the shirt is too small. Before I go to dinners, she would dress me up (when I was a kid) but now that I'm older, I would dress up and she'd tell me which coat would match most and what shoes would go best.
If I feel like my clothes are getting a bit boring I am allowed to share clothes with my mummy :) yes, she is very petite. My mummy is very special. She is very cool as well because she manages to look good, smell good, think good and cook good all at the same time?! BONKERS, I know :)

But well, that's my mum :) she talks me through difficult times. She guides me through the windy roads. She motivates me for sports and studies. And I know she never gave up on me. I know she never compares me to my sister and I know that she always prays for me. I appreciate it mummy. Thank you and I loveeeeee you ♥♥♥


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Weirdo much

Yeah, I have to admit that I am a very weird person. Not many people like me and not everyone can handle me. I am crazy and loud, I know xD but at least I enjoy myself and am myself around other people and my friends. I am weird. And that makes me special and one of a kind. I can't change the weird me because well, it's just me.
And don't ever in your right mind even think that I will change for you. That time is so gone and will not, I repeat. WILL NOT happen again.
It's time for me to be happy. I want people to accept me for who I am. And I really really don't give a shit about what other people think of me. They can be nasty and arrogant and rude to me but at the end of the day, I want to be happy. In fact, I NEED to be happy.
I know I sound very full of myself but its my time to shine. I don't want to just blend in the crowd. I want to stand out. I don't have the looks and I certainly don't have the height. (Or dance moves or voice or talent) But inner beauty is the best. And my inner beauty leads to weirdness which not all people have. In fact, I would take it as a gift from God.
People who only care about outer beauty should face the truth and come to a fact that it can be taken away from you in a split second by a car accident or by an injury or scar. We would all eventually get shrivelled up and old looking even though we might invest in a lot of beauty products. Not to mention wrinkly and stuff. But inner beauty cannot be taken away from you, EVER.
Looks can be deceiving. You can be really pretty and sweet on the outside but all bitter and crude on the inside. Or you could be ugly and fat on the outside but humble and polite on the inside.
(Get to know the person before judging)

All I'm trying to say is, looks isn't the one that matters most. But what matters most is the inside of the persons heart. Be crazy, be weird. Be YOU :) If some people can't take it, leave them. Who needs the boring them right? XD hahaha, live life to the fullest and don't get distract by what people think of you. God bless ♥

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Lovely

Hugs are lovely! I do not understand people who don't hug.
Hugs are warm,
They make me feel loved

Side hugs, front hugs, bear hugs, rape hugs, those tight hugs, lift up hugs, spinning hugs and those hugs that come in surprises from the back. Their awesome. ♥

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I DON'T CARE!!!

I've always wanted people to like me. Always wanted them to think I'm cool and nice and stuff. You know, how most people would want people to think of them. I get so distracted that I didn't realise I was changing. Not into a better person but worse. I forgot what was my aim for the year. And I broke my New Years resolution. All this to look cool and nice in front of others? I knew it wasn't worth it. But the thing I hated most was I WAS UNHAPPY. I was always sad, depressed because all I ever did was just try to be the someone I'm not.
At the end of last year, I moved to UK and for the first time in my life, I got bullied. It wasn't a very nice experience obviously. I mean, who would want to get teased and bullied just because of what you look like, sound like, where you're from and etc. But it thought me so many things.
Eg -
Clear the air, ask them what did you do and why they are doing that to you because there could've been a misunderstanding. So it's always good to talk to them even though it seems a bit scary. If you are very affected by it, talk to a teacher and have a meeting with that person with the teacher around to access the conversation.

I cried a lot and I was very scared. I'm not even joking. Like how could such a 'good' and 'polite' girl do that to me. I was very confused. What did I do to start this?
So apparently, I called a certain girl 'fat b!tch' and she decided to ask her friends to tell me off before maths. They were kind of like cornering me. So there were about 3-4 people.

She walked up to me and asked if I was Emerald. And I said yeah (but she already knew it was me because we share one subject together) then another girl walked up and put her hand across the shoulder of the girl who asked me what was my name. And they started talking. She asked me if I called this girl a fat b!tch and if I apologised to her. But the other girl did not say anything relevant. She asked me 'why do you have a 6inch thing in your ear?' And everyone laughed. She asked 'why'd you even bother to come here? Half of the school hates you already. Might as well go back to where you came from.' THAT was very offensive. She was so annoying. Like seriously, I was new. Would half of the school even know me?

So I found out that the girl who said all those mean things is actually a very hated person around school. Haha, how dare she judge me? But anyways, I came to a point where I couldn't handle it anymore and I told a teacher and sorted things out with her.
Then I realised that they were still doing it and now, there are other people as well. They didn't do anything to me but they did talk behind my back. Thank God I've got true friends, friends who understand and would help me through that time. (You know who you are :)) thank you.

Now, I've came to a point where, SCREW what they say, does it matter? Do I care? Who the hell are they to judge me? And their opinion on me, I DON'T CARE!! I don't care what people think. Why should I? They are not someone important to me and its time for me to make myself happy instead of other people. So there. I DON'T CARE. I don't care what people say. I don't care what people think. I don't. And you shouldn't too. ♡

Sisterly love

We've been through so much :') I don't think everybody's relationship with their sister is as good as ours. Seriously, when we were younger, I used to pinch my sister until she bleeds and vice versa. And we always quarrelled to the extent that we had to get separated. Of course, how can I forget the good parts eyh? Eg -
Singing duets (high school musical and camp rock songs)
Making dance moves to random songs on daddy's phone
Giving 'sister discounts' for the 'items' in our 'shop'
Playing with our 'pastas' (those yellow small toys we get in our happy meal, uncle Andrew fav ether to us)
Sleeping together on a single bed because we watched a horror movie
BOY TALK! (I like how it's just random and out of the blue)
Gossiping (ya know, girl talk (; )
Making shiz up before we go to sleep.
Wearing mummy's shoes
Fashion shows
Using our cupboards as 'lifts'
Ribeye <- LMAO!!
OMG!!! Remember? Oh, good times :')

We've had so many good times together. Thank goodness we've stopped fighting and quarrelling. I like how we still can have boy talks and not be ashamed. How we share our clothes and other stuff like hair products and makeup. + how I help you with your hair and makeup (I'm pretty sure this goes one way) haha, but it doesn't matter. The reason for this post is just to remind you that I love you. 我爱你. And thank you for guiding me when I'm lost. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down. Thank you for being patient with me. Teaching me how to do homework, etc. Even the little things like checking for spelling mistakes or printing things out for me. (Are they counted as 'little things'? Anyways) Thank you. I want you to know that I appreciate you and want things to be perfect between us. I know nothing is perfect but we could be close to perfect. ♥♥♥