I DON'T CARE!!!

I've always wanted people to like me. Always wanted them to think I'm cool and nice and stuff. You know, how most people would want people to think of them. I get so distracted that I didn't realise I was changing. Not into a better person but worse. I forgot what was my aim for the year. And I broke my New Years resolution. All this to look cool and nice in front of others? I knew it wasn't worth it. But the thing I hated most was I WAS UNHAPPY. I was always sad, depressed because all I ever did was just try to be the someone I'm not.
At the end of last year, I moved to UK and for the first time in my life, I got bullied. It wasn't a very nice experience obviously. I mean, who would want to get teased and bullied just because of what you look like, sound like, where you're from and etc. But it thought me so many things.
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Clear the air, ask them what did you do and why they are doing that to you because there could've been a misunderstanding. So it's always good to talk to them even though it seems a bit scary. If you are very affected by it, talk to a teacher and have a meeting with that person with the teacher around to access the conversation.

I cried a lot and I was very scared. I'm not even joking. Like how could such a 'good' and 'polite' girl do that to me. I was very confused. What did I do to start this?
So apparently, I called a certain girl 'fat b!tch' and she decided to ask her friends to tell me off before maths. They were kind of like cornering me. So there were about 3-4 people.

She walked up to me and asked if I was Emerald. And I said yeah (but she already knew it was me because we share one subject together) then another girl walked up and put her hand across the shoulder of the girl who asked me what was my name. And they started talking. She asked me if I called this girl a fat b!tch and if I apologised to her. But the other girl did not say anything relevant. She asked me 'why do you have a 6inch thing in your ear?' And everyone laughed. She asked 'why'd you even bother to come here? Half of the school hates you already. Might as well go back to where you came from.' THAT was very offensive. She was so annoying. Like seriously, I was new. Would half of the school even know me?

So I found out that the girl who said all those mean things is actually a very hated person around school. Haha, how dare she judge me? But anyways, I came to a point where I couldn't handle it anymore and I told a teacher and sorted things out with her.
Then I realised that they were still doing it and now, there are other people as well. They didn't do anything to me but they did talk behind my back. Thank God I've got true friends, friends who understand and would help me through that time. (You know who you are :)) thank you.

Now, I've came to a point where, SCREW what they say, does it matter? Do I care? Who the hell are they to judge me? And their opinion on me, I DON'T CARE!! I don't care what people think. Why should I? They are not someone important to me and its time for me to make myself happy instead of other people. So there. I DON'T CARE. I don't care what people say. I don't care what people think. I don't. And you shouldn't too. ♡