What is life?

According to the dictionary, life is the property or quality that distinguishes living organisms from dead organisms and inanimate matter, manifested in functions such as metabolism, growth, reproduction, and response to stimuli or adaptation to the environment originating from within the organism.
Have you ever wondered, what is life? Am I here for a purpose? Am I here just for fun? What am I here for? Am I just like ants to some other living things up there? How do we know we are significant human beings?
Well, life is what you want it to be. You are here for a purpose. You aren't here just 'for fun'. There is a reason for you on this earth. Even if you don't see it now, or tomorrow, or the day after. You will figure it out. I am no one to tell you what life should be like. Just, treasure it. You never know when the last day would be. Thank God every morning for what you've got. Thank Him for blessing you with another day.
Don't commit suicide just because someone said something really hurtful. Or just because 'you can't cope with life anymore'. Trust me, there are worse people out there. Those people who live in the streets, you don't see them committing suicide. There will always be hope but you have to let faith guide you.
In conclusion, life is what you want it to be. Live it to the fullest and treasure it because it is something very special :) <3 xx

Thank you.

I want to take this time to thank everyone who has been reading my blog. I am very touched with how many views I've got in less than a week. So thank you. This post I'd dedicated to you guys <3 below you see the first picture which was the first day I got my blog and the second picture is until this day. Thank you again.

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It's been a while C":

I'm sorry I haven't been updating my blog. I've been really busy and tired the past couple of days. But anyways, its (still) Friday so why not? As usual, I was scrolling through twitter and I saw amazing and beautiful pictures. Those 2 pictures at the bottom of this post are the 2 that I liked the most. They are so beautiful. I was just thinking how lucky those people are. How they managed to experience it and not to mention those who actually live there. But so,show, I've got this feeling that they take it for granted and that its nothing special to them.
I was also thinking about how sweet it would be to kiss under the that sunset. Or maybe to be on that boat with your loved ones admiring the it. People just don't know how lucky they are. They tempt to neglect the people around them and the things around them and before they manage to appreciate it, it'll be gone.
(Going a bit off topic here but) I love tigers. Mainly because they are really pretty and they could be often found in Malaysia not forgetting that I'm born in the year of the tiger okay, I actually want to adopt a tiger. I mean seriously, how cool would it be? (There's a picture of a white and orange tiger below) sadly, they are getting extinct. Those beautiful creatures that used to be really involved in the animal kingdom are endangered. What is happening? This makes me really sad because they hunt them down just for their fur and apparently, their claws make good medicine? Oh ffs, we have other medicines. We can't endanger a species and go overboard just because their claws are good medicine and their fur are good insulators. *sighs* yes, I am very sad about this situation. I simply love tigers, they're so cute and I really really really want my children to see them. To see them in REAL LIFE. Maybe in the night safari or the zoo but obviously not in a museum. That's just horrible.
Anyways linking that up to the sunset and waterfall picture below, they are beautiful things and you should appreciate it while its still there. Who knows what could happen? Maybe mankind finds this very valuable thing under all waterfalls and decides to dig them up, the waterfalls can't be waterfalls anymore and the next thing you know, no more waterfalls. And the sunsets, maybe because of global warming, mankind discovers a way to prevent it from happening by making man made clouds. And by making that, the UV-rays from the sun won't reach the earth but it will still be able to keep the earth warm. But maybe we won't be able to see the sun anymore. And if you can't see the sun, you won't see the sunset or the sunrise.
To sum it all up, appreciate the things that you have now. Take a day off what you do and just sit by your window or your tree outside your house (or just go to a park) and appreciate the way the earth is working right now because you will never know when it'll be the last day you are living or when it'll be the last day of that happening the way it always happens. <3 <3
Nighty night. Xxxxx

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Mother knows best C:

Everybody, this is my mummy. A motivational, loving, caring, warm, cheerful mother that is always there no matter what. I love how my relationship with my mummy is so open. Sometimes I even feel like she's my friend or sister. We can practically talk about anything. Some of it are private, some of it are funny, some of it are weird and some of it are serious shizzz.
Ever since I was young, I was brought up to tell everything to my parents. But I wasn't forced to. It was more like I wanted to tell them about everything and anything that happened.
I talked to her about relationship issues. And she would give me advise which were are still are useful. I would tell her what I'm going through (relationship problems as well) and she would remind me that I should not take things too seriously. I would tell her that I've got a pimple and she'd tell me what to do. I remember when she took me to my first ever facial ♥ fabulous. My mother would take me shopping and tell me if I look good in that dress or not. If the heals are too high or if the shirt is too small. Before I go to dinners, she would dress me up (when I was a kid) but now that I'm older, I would dress up and she'd tell me which coat would match most and what shoes would go best.
If I feel like my clothes are getting a bit boring I am allowed to share clothes with my mummy :) yes, she is very petite. My mummy is very special. She is very cool as well because she manages to look good, smell good, think good and cook good all at the same time?! BONKERS, I know :)

But well, that's my mum :) she talks me through difficult times. She guides me through the windy roads. She motivates me for sports and studies. And I know she never gave up on me. I know she never compares me to my sister and I know that she always prays for me. I appreciate it mummy. Thank you and I loveeeeee you ♥♥♥


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Weirdo much

Yeah, I have to admit that I am a very weird person. Not many people like me and not everyone can handle me. I am crazy and loud, I know xD but at least I enjoy myself and am myself around other people and my friends. I am weird. And that makes me special and one of a kind. I can't change the weird me because well, it's just me.
And don't ever in your right mind even think that I will change for you. That time is so gone and will not, I repeat. WILL NOT happen again.
It's time for me to be happy. I want people to accept me for who I am. And I really really don't give a shit about what other people think of me. They can be nasty and arrogant and rude to me but at the end of the day, I want to be happy. In fact, I NEED to be happy.
I know I sound very full of myself but its my time to shine. I don't want to just blend in the crowd. I want to stand out. I don't have the looks and I certainly don't have the height. (Or dance moves or voice or talent) But inner beauty is the best. And my inner beauty leads to weirdness which not all people have. In fact, I would take it as a gift from God.
People who only care about outer beauty should face the truth and come to a fact that it can be taken away from you in a split second by a car accident or by an injury or scar. We would all eventually get shrivelled up and old looking even though we might invest in a lot of beauty products. Not to mention wrinkly and stuff. But inner beauty cannot be taken away from you, EVER.
Looks can be deceiving. You can be really pretty and sweet on the outside but all bitter and crude on the inside. Or you could be ugly and fat on the outside but humble and polite on the inside.
(Get to know the person before judging)

All I'm trying to say is, looks isn't the one that matters most. But what matters most is the inside of the persons heart. Be crazy, be weird. Be YOU :) If some people can't take it, leave them. Who needs the boring them right? XD hahaha, live life to the fullest and don't get distract by what people think of you. God bless ♥

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Lovely

Hugs are lovely! I do not understand people who don't hug.
Hugs are warm,
They make me feel loved

Side hugs, front hugs, bear hugs, rape hugs, those tight hugs, lift up hugs, spinning hugs and those hugs that come in surprises from the back. Their awesome. ♥

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I DON'T CARE!!!

I've always wanted people to like me. Always wanted them to think I'm cool and nice and stuff. You know, how most people would want people to think of them. I get so distracted that I didn't realise I was changing. Not into a better person but worse. I forgot what was my aim for the year. And I broke my New Years resolution. All this to look cool and nice in front of others? I knew it wasn't worth it. But the thing I hated most was I WAS UNHAPPY. I was always sad, depressed because all I ever did was just try to be the someone I'm not.
At the end of last year, I moved to UK and for the first time in my life, I got bullied. It wasn't a very nice experience obviously. I mean, who would want to get teased and bullied just because of what you look like, sound like, where you're from and etc. But it thought me so many things.
Eg -
Clear the air, ask them what did you do and why they are doing that to you because there could've been a misunderstanding. So it's always good to talk to them even though it seems a bit scary. If you are very affected by it, talk to a teacher and have a meeting with that person with the teacher around to access the conversation.

I cried a lot and I was very scared. I'm not even joking. Like how could such a 'good' and 'polite' girl do that to me. I was very confused. What did I do to start this?
So apparently, I called a certain girl 'fat b!tch' and she decided to ask her friends to tell me off before maths. They were kind of like cornering me. So there were about 3-4 people.

She walked up to me and asked if I was Emerald. And I said yeah (but she already knew it was me because we share one subject together) then another girl walked up and put her hand across the shoulder of the girl who asked me what was my name. And they started talking. She asked me if I called this girl a fat b!tch and if I apologised to her. But the other girl did not say anything relevant. She asked me 'why do you have a 6inch thing in your ear?' And everyone laughed. She asked 'why'd you even bother to come here? Half of the school hates you already. Might as well go back to where you came from.' THAT was very offensive. She was so annoying. Like seriously, I was new. Would half of the school even know me?

So I found out that the girl who said all those mean things is actually a very hated person around school. Haha, how dare she judge me? But anyways, I came to a point where I couldn't handle it anymore and I told a teacher and sorted things out with her.
Then I realised that they were still doing it and now, there are other people as well. They didn't do anything to me but they did talk behind my back. Thank God I've got true friends, friends who understand and would help me through that time. (You know who you are :)) thank you.

Now, I've came to a point where, SCREW what they say, does it matter? Do I care? Who the hell are they to judge me? And their opinion on me, I DON'T CARE!! I don't care what people think. Why should I? They are not someone important to me and its time for me to make myself happy instead of other people. So there. I DON'T CARE. I don't care what people say. I don't care what people think. I don't. And you shouldn't too. ♡

Sisterly love

We've been through so much :') I don't think everybody's relationship with their sister is as good as ours. Seriously, when we were younger, I used to pinch my sister until she bleeds and vice versa. And we always quarrelled to the extent that we had to get separated. Of course, how can I forget the good parts eyh? Eg -
Singing duets (high school musical and camp rock songs)
Making dance moves to random songs on daddy's phone
Giving 'sister discounts' for the 'items' in our 'shop'
Playing with our 'pastas' (those yellow small toys we get in our happy meal, uncle Andrew fav ether to us)
Sleeping together on a single bed because we watched a horror movie
BOY TALK! (I like how it's just random and out of the blue)
Gossiping (ya know, girl talk (; )
Making shiz up before we go to sleep.
Wearing mummy's shoes
Fashion shows
Using our cupboards as 'lifts'
Ribeye <- LMAO!!
OMG!!! Remember? Oh, good times :')

We've had so many good times together. Thank goodness we've stopped fighting and quarrelling. I like how we still can have boy talks and not be ashamed. How we share our clothes and other stuff like hair products and makeup. + how I help you with your hair and makeup (I'm pretty sure this goes one way) haha, but it doesn't matter. The reason for this post is just to remind you that I love you. 我爱你. And thank you for guiding me when I'm lost. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down. Thank you for being patient with me. Teaching me how to do homework, etc. Even the little things like checking for spelling mistakes or printing things out for me. (Are they counted as 'little things'? Anyways) Thank you. I want you to know that I appreciate you and want things to be perfect between us. I know nothing is perfect but we could be close to perfect. ♥♥♥

National University of Singapore (NUS)

It was such a good experience. Top 30 in the world.
My mom knows a din in this university. He doesn't normally invite people over to the university. It was Chinese New Year then and everyone was feeling festive. The university is huge and OMG it was a really really good experience. We managed to go to the meeting room and it was amazingly set up. You could see so many things. turn to one side and its the forest. Turn to another side, you can see the students dorms. Turn to the other side, it's their own stadium!! YES, own stadium!! If I were to study there, I would train whenever I'm free ♥ there are loads and loads of tennis courts and restaurants and pubs. It was amazing

True story!!

On this particular day, I was such a good girl :)) I decided to put my phone on silent because of school. And I turned off the vibration because it felt weird when something vibrates at my butt. And on that day, it was snowing so heavily. My friends and I were getting all exited about snow and decided to sacrifice our lunch for a snowball fight (even though it wasn't allowed xD)
And smart me decided to put my phone in my coat pocket (its normally at my back pocket of my pants) so we were playing and playing and playing and I put my hand into the pocket to get some warmth then continued to throw snowballs :)
About 20minutes into it, I wanted to check my phone and reached in to my pocket. I didn't know that it was missing. I didn't actually believe that it was gone. I checked my bag and pencil box to make sure that my phone wasn't there. And ...... It hit me. I LOST MY IPHONE!!
I panicked so much. Wait no, I didn't actually panic. Cause.. Hmm, Idk I just didn't feel the need to panic. I asked my friends to help me find my phone and they decided to call it. But remembering the smart me on that day turned the tone off and the vibration off. So TADDDAA, there goes my phone. I didn't and couldn't find it.
My mom couldn't pick me up that day because it snowed too heavily and the roads were all iced up. I couldn't contact her and she couldn't contact me. Thank God there was this friend of mine that had my sisters number. I called her and told her that I lost my phone. And she was amazingly nice to me that day, she said oh.. Okay then, don't worry about it.
So I got my sister to text the number over to my friends phone and called my mom. I found out that she was walking to my school to come pick me up. She told me to start walking and we would meet at the half way point or when we meet. So once I met up with my mom, she asked how did I lose my phone and I told her the whole story.
She didn't scold me and she didn't nag me because it was clearly my fault. She wouldn't get mea new phone and I understand because it was my fault. My dad on the other hand was more disappointed then I was.. But I guess he got over it x3
He is the sweetest dad ever though, he managed to borrow a phone for me. It's not a permanent phone but its better than nothing. There's this Chinese saying '久的没去，新的没来' which means if the old one doesn't go, the new one doesn't come. I am still in the process of saving up for a new phone and also deciding on what phone to get.

Lesson, don't play in the snow if you're not allowed to do so. And also, don't be as smart as I was and leave your phone in your loose pocket while running around like a headless chicken. 👌

And in this case of the picture below (click it to view the full size) my phone decided to play hide and seek but never returned x( not a happy girl. 😢

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A day to remember

Every picture has a story. This picture that you see below, is my best friend. Her name is Sangeetha Mohana. I remember my last day of school very clearly. First, let me explain why it was the last day of school for me. My dad got a job in UK and our whole family decided to move along with him. It was a good decision but I must admit that it was not easy. When I found out that it was actually going to happen, the fact that I never thought I would even come to UK for a holiday, it was really shocking.
Sangeetha and I went through a lot. In fact, I think I almost lost her once. Now that I think of it, she was the ONLY one helping me through troubled times (from school) and she was always there. I feel really bad because I don't think I was always there for her and I always took her for granted.
On the last day of school, she had an interact thing going on. And I thought that's it. She's not going to be saying goodbye to me. But from far, I looked down the walk way and I saw this girl, in her black sexy skirts running like a tiger, IN HEELS, to me!!!!!
She had a camera in one hand but did not let that affect her hug. She hugged me so tight, even by thinking of it now I feel the warmth of that hug, I love hugs like that. Then, I started crying because I really didn't think she would turn up. And i never would've thought she would run in HEELS and get blisters just for me. Her interact meeting that day was very important but she still stood by me ♥thank you love.

Sangeetha, if you are reading this. I'm sorry for what I've done to you. Please forgive me? I miss you so much and sorry I couldn't meet up with you the last time I was back. I will be calling you soon okay hunnie? I hope everything is well and I can't wait to catch up with you. Xxxxx♥

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Say what??!!?!

Have you ever felt a sad, alone felling in your heart? Like someone is missing from your life.. When you just feel like there's no one to go to when you're feeling crap. No one can understand or help you through this time. Or when you just broke up with your perfect love? And basically, you just feel lonely. Well, WAKE UP! Pink says *doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone*
Don't let this sadness bring you down. My friend Sam and I were having a chat about relationships, he said that people (teenagers) don't really have a reason to feel lonely. It's just a term for 'I'm desperate for a boyfriend/girlfriend' which I completely agree. You are a teenager for goodness sakes. Your friends will always be there for you. Or you could just turn to your teddy bear (since we aren't too old yet.) But back to the point -> What is a high school relationship for anyways? 1 out of 1000 would last and if you're really lucky, that person would be you. People now'a days just want a relationship to do 'things' and by 'things' I mean sex. DUHHH, don't act shocked or surprised. You knew it was coming. Apparently, loosing your virginity at this age is 'cool'?
So really, unless you are desperate or just looking for trouble, get into a 'relationship' but my advise, invest in something long-termed. Like friendship. Screw what other people think of you. I'm personally close with guy friends. And obviously, people assume that I like him or he likes me just because we are close. But seriously, if your friendship is worth keeping and you have thing feeling in your heart that it will last, why'd you care of what other people think? They don't affect you in life. You are you and no one can change that. So get rid of that feeling and be happy. Life's too short to be grumpy and upset about these things ♥ ♥

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Glowing lagoon, Jamaica

I never would've thought that this was real. I was just looking through Facebook as usual and because I liked the Avatar page, they posted a picture of their glowing lagoon from their movie. I then shared the picture and my friend told me that there was actually this place in Jamaica. I fell in love straight away. Into my bucket list it goes ♥ I have to go there before I die.

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